Disclaimer: Be warned, this post was written when the writer was hung over and in need to narrate. I still am, btw, and I think I will make a proper disclaimer tomorrow.
I’m drunk, or a bit high. Or let’s just say, hung-over. That’s why I’m looking intently at the keyboard and typing. I generally don’t.
Anyway, so being hung-over has a few advantages and a few disadvantages. Let’s clear off the disadvantages first.
1. Feeling of being underwater.
2. Dull head.
3. Not-so-dull headache.
4. Mild queasiness (inversely proportionate to units of alcohol consumed.)
5. Unpleasant hallucinations and images in the head.
6. Intense hunger and thirst.
Now, the advantages
- Interesting images and hallucinations in the head.
- Capacity to be more blunt, honest and outrageous.
- Easily forgiving and forgetting.
I just added the 6th point to the disadvantages. And now I’m wondering if I should go get something to eat, but, if I do, then advantage 3 will come into play and I will forget what I wanted to write.
The reason why I’m leaning over my laptop when instead I should be curling in bed, is because I saw a couple of visions that I need to put down.
I was thinking of the party I attended last night, where I was quite a flirt and certainly got myself a good bit of attention from the boys I’d met (and for the first time). And I was wondering how, among ALL those men, I couldn't think of wanting to really see any of them again. Except maybe one, but anyhow.
And I felt sad.
The vision I saw right then was of me groping in the dark for someone to hold my hand. Not a vulgar vision, of course, just symbolic. And the lesson that the vision pointed out to me, (voiced out by the squeaky voice in my head) was, “stop groping in the dark.” When the right time comes, you will meet the fun, amazing, perfect, interesting person you are waiting for. Just stop waiting, and get on with life until then.
The second one was a memory. Long time back, of a little episode with my ex-boyfriend. I am not going to narrate it here, but it was an ugly episode which left me feeling small and played-with.
I don’t want that to ever happen, and the symbolic ‘lesson’ to that one was of me wearing my belt really tight, and not loosening it ever. Unless am sure I want to. Am not sure how that comes across to people reading a blog, but I just mean I won’t tolerate anyone playing with me again. Forget allow it.
Anyway, besides all this historic crap, I am also hoping to write something fun, interesting and creative. But, am not sure it’s here at all.
Right now, am listening to a weird mix of Alan Parson’s superb Mammagamma with Pink Floyd’s Brick in the Wall. Very nice job, whoever.
Its quite trippy.
I’ve never really been to a very trippy party. Ok, I’ve been to lots of rowdy parties, with lots of alcohol, weed, and what not, but never a rave party. A Goan rave trippy party. I do wanna go. Especially with my camera, when I buy the new one, and I will look after it of course.
Oh, and now my iTunes randomizer has randomly picked Tom Wait’s Road to Peace. Excellent song. Gary sent it to me a week back. I’ve heard Gary sing this style before, and now I know where he got it from. Gary’s brilliant. He knows so much music, it would give anyone a complex.
I was actually thinking of Gary a few minutes back too. I miss the Split boys.
Yesterday, when Varun was over and he was playing music off my laptop, and he picked Split’s Holy Ghost Machine Gun, and actually sang along, and BOTH my roommates also seemed to love the song, I felt that swell of pride for my boys. They really are talented. And they need someone to push them. That was my job while I was there, until a year back. And when I go back to Bombay, I will take back my position with eager spirit. In fact, Split is one of the strong reasons why I’m quitting and going back... I miss too much about Bombay, and Split is one of the most exciting things I was closely involved with. And when I get back, there will be lots more.
This Tom Waits song is croony. And rather long. I am going to pick the next song and save the iTunes randomizer some cursing.
The Great Hosannah – Kula Shaker.
Oh man, I love this one. Very nice, because it’s got so much in it.
Really excellent song. I hate it when anyone talks when I’m listening to my favorite music. Annoys the pants off me. Wow, is that even a phrase and what does it imply? I just wanna say I get really annoyed.
Also, I absolutely hate it when someone talks when I am watching a nice movie.
Yesterday, Varun and Priya saw Pather Panchali. For the first time, and though they saw it till the end (I doubt I’d allow them to stop midway anyway) but they kept talking here and there, or now and again, during the film, and it drove me mad.
I know it’s not fair of me to expect everyone else to take movies as seriously as I do, even if it is something as special as Satyajit Ray’s masterpiece. But, I guess I am allowed to be cranky once in a while.
To make a point here, I was the president of the St. Xavier’s Film Club in my last year at college, and right since then, my list of Movies To Watch, has grown, (and barely been satisfied) until now. Back at home, I cant watch movies if my parents or Mom or anyone is at home, either I get in their way, or they in mine, and anyway if the word ‘fuck’ comes up more than once, my mom flinches and wears an expression of distinct horror.
And since I moved to Hyderabad, the ‘parents’ element was eliminated, but I didn’t have a DVD player. And now, finally I have a laptop, and over a hundred DVDs (excellent ones) lying right here, waiting to be loved.
And this is my first weekend here in Hyd, with the laptop. And so, right now, at this precise moment, I’m wondering why I’m typing this ridiculous post and not watching a movie. Must do something about it. Will hit a button to get me out of here, and into celluloid.
Toodles.